Henrik 'Henke' Larsson played in the 2009 test match against Denmark. After the match, he got the message. His brother was dead.

10 years later, tells the Swedish footballer, how recent many years has been. How he has had it. And how the blame has been sitting in him.

This is a longer interview in the podcast 'Nemo Meets a Friend'. It writes Expressen.

"I think of him several times a week. When I hear a song, see someone or maybe looking on the lawn outside the house where we used to play football one summer. I think of him when I drive by the cemetery where he is buried," he explains.

It was in July 2009, that 'Henke' lost his younger brother, who for a long time struggled with a drug addiction. He died in the capital Stockholm, in an event that involved just substances.

In the years after have the swede also been plagued by guilt, tells the today 48-year-old Henrik Larsson

"I have felt guilty Betmatik and felt remorse. But I did what I could. I paid the debt and new things for the apartment. In the end it is the person himself should decide to stop."

As the years have passed, he is, however, now reached so far that he is able to think about his brother without getting upset.

"It is only now in the last few years, I have reconciled myself with it. That he is where he is. I can laugh when I think of him now. I couldn't do that earlier. If you ask my parents, then suffer the remains of it. It is still very hard," he says.

At a news conference in 2009 spoke Henrik Larsson for the first time about the tragedy.

"It has been a great loss for me, for my older brother, my father and my mother, and we live with the grief every day. It affects me every day as a person. But not as a player, when I am on the track," he said among other things at the time to B. T.

Henrik 'Henke' Larsson was in the course of his career past both the Swedish and Dutch clubs, while he from 2004 to 2006 played for the FC Barcelona.