Spontaneously having a spritz with a friend at 6 p.m. in the summer. Lying in a meadow and looking into the air. Being with people without looking at the clock.
I would like to live like this or something like that. But that's not how my life is. No longer. And exactly for five and a half years. Ever since my daughter was born. I love her and would never leave her. But if I had to decide again whether I wanted to be a mother, I would decide against it. Maybe then my relationship would still be intact.